Dazed in Confusion

Okay, I'm not going to disclose exactly what this was about. But you know when something just throws you for a loop - and you're not quite sure how you should feel? You almost feel absolutely nothing, but are not sure why.... You know it's a humongous deal - but emotionally you remain dettached. Anyways, if you still don't get it, I can't explain...

Frankly, I wasn’t terribly surprised. Or is that simply a subconscious cop out? An internal method of blocking an outer reality? The division of my nature causes me to wonder. On one hand – totally expected. The other – completely bewildering. This paradigm of virtue or ideal example of what everyone should attain to, nothing more than a bleached shell of pretense.